Curses, Baggins!
It took time, but there come's a point when you realise how hard you have been on yourself for what you have done, or all the experiences and individuals you come in contact with, even since your childhood.
Because of that...you matured faster than a normal child would do, felt deeper and wider than people would be comfortable of for prolonged periods (it sounds like length and breadth...some weird shape I guess) and thought further than you expected yourself to think...in a young age.
Suddenly, you feel like you're operating on another planet (especially when I write...), you start to analyze and visualize simultaneously on the go before you shapeshift according to the situation and person, and...you carry different weights for different periods.
However, at some point, you start to realise that sometimes...it's just uncontrollable and not up to you to decide, plan and take action. Because...you're fully aware of your capabilities and your capacity to take on something, some goals may be realistically unattainable, some responsibilities are no meant for you to bear or take alone, or some individuals or experiences just didn't meant to "vibe" in life, no matter how hard you try.
So...there come's a point when you would want to forgive both the new and old you and propel yourself to be better in all aspects, for the sake of people around you, yourself...and even the world, all while achieving dreams.